of the day when there's no more me and you. I'm scared.
When Blaine walks in you can hear in his voice that he's giddy. His tone is light and you can hear the mixture of nerves and excitement - it's familiar, kind of like how he was in Silly Love Songs. What this tells me? Blaine came looking to confess to Kurt, because obviously after Blackbird he was ready to, but at the same time? He's freaking out. With Jeremiah he used a song to confess, someone else's words, but he knows he can't do that with Kurt; he has to be honest, from the heart. For the first time he's not pretending or using someone else's song and words as a defense - this is all him, and of course that's scary.
He sits down and it's like he's waiting for an opening to launch into the words he wants to say - and Kurt gives him that. You can tell that the first few lines are something he's planned, maybe, or the things he thought as soon as the snap inside of his brain hit; they're more confident, they come out easier. Still, he has to take a deep breath before he speaks, he has to take a moment to compose himself - because this? This is a make-or-break situation.
The 'I've been looking for you forever' line was the most important for me. Blaine doesn't just mean the romantic feelings he has for Kurt; he means the friendship, the honesty, the companionship. He means that he's been looking for Kurt, as a person, forever: Kurt as a friend alongside Kurt as a boyfriend. Blaine doesn't seem to have a huge amount of close friendships and I think that he's needed someone like Kurt his whole life; someone he can lean on, spend time with, care for even without the romantic feelings. People have suggested that Blaine hadn't been looking for Kurt forever because he only just realised his feelings - but he has, just as a friend before a lover. What do they say about romance? “Love is just friendship set on fire.”
He is so intent on watching Kurt's face throughout his speech - because he wants to make sure that Kurt is okay with this. Because he knows Kurt's history, their history, he needs to know that Kurt is okay and comfortable with what he's saying - because if he isn't he really will lose one of the best things that's ever happened to him; he will lose one of his, if not his only, best friends. There is so much at stake here and the courage it must take to admit this? I wouldn't have been able to do it.
Before he says 'you move me' his mouth goes to form other words - you can see that this? This is his heart. This isn't planned, because he starts to say something and changes his mind. He goes for it and then retracts, starts something else. He's unsure and lost and he is just trying so, so hard to say the right things to get his feelings across. Because, like he said in 'Silly Love Songs', he's not very good at this. But he cares for Kurt, so much, that he wants this, out of everything, to be right.
When he goes in for the kiss he's slow; he leans in slowly after watching Kurt's face for a moment. He doesn't want this to be a kiss that doesn't count. He doesn't want Kurt to regret it, and he doesn't want Kurt to feel abused like he did with Karofsky. He wants to kiss Kurt and for Kurt to want to kiss him back - and he respects Kurt enough to give him the time and the space to move away, to push him away if he wants.
After he kisses Kurt he's so happy - ridiculously so. He fumbles with his hands, he laughs, he looks around - he is literally speechless with happiness. Because, for the first time in a long time, he has something good. He's been accepted. He's found love, and that love loves him back. And it's beautiful.
For me, you're right. I feel exactly the same.